These Pills

Open up my eyes and see.

The mirror there in front of me.

A girl whom I cannot make out.

She has my face, my pure embrace.

This girl is full of love and grace.

Last I saw, I went a different route.

My eyes were darker, as hers are lighter.

My smile was dull, while hers are brighter.

Now these pills fill me with doubt.

There was so much wrong in my mind.

I was insane, one of a kind.

Who is this woman, she’s letting me fade out.

3 Empty Years 

Confusion lingers on my mind.Is it the truth? or passing the time?

Am I overthinking? will I be fine?

Or will it end in heartbreak and start a 5th time?

How can I be here when my mind is over there?

I feel like I’m drowning in the middle of nowhere.

Concrete on my heart not ready to let out. 

If it doesn’t break free then I am in doubt. 

Not one person deserves to feel alone.

My heart won’t open, I don’t feel at home.

3 empty years of solitude and finding. 

My mind was at work it was busy, grinding.

To see who I would become but the road is clear.

I lost my sense of love and replaced it with fear.

The Vision

Silence fills the air when spoken. A single word is not heard.

Burden on our chests leaves us broken.

The vision is now blurred. 

Tears upon your cheek speak loudly.

Love and vain intertwine.

All of a sudden I love you sounds cloudy.

And everyone’s crossing the line. 

What did we do to come close to the end?

Pretending we cared when no one did.

Was it my mouth or was it your hand?

Into a phone is where everyone hid.

Greed and pride judged us the hardest.

Leaving behind despair.

Was it you or I who was the proudest?

In breaking something that wasn’t there….

February 2016

Location: Weehawken, NJ , Verona, NJ, & Bloomfield, NJ.

Changes Are Coming

Just an update for the Eternaleo and Janexto followers!

Over the summer I have learned a lot about myself and having accomplishments that I will make a separate blog for. These and other reasons why I wasn’t active over the summer. I am no longer sad and depressed but will always remember what it felt like and why. It’s just a part of me that made me stronger.

That being said, I want to take this blog a little more serious!

It will be more of a portfolio of the photos I have taken! Don’t get me wrong, I’ll post blog posts from time to time but I need to share both my passions.

It’s time for a new and improved Eternaleo!

Time for a change!

Xoxo Eternaleo ❤